Week 1 - Is it weird to write a weekly on Monday?
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Week 1 - Is it weird to write a weekly on Monday?
I plan to put some random stuff in my blog. It's my own little world, so putting whatever I want is fine, right?
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Last week, I suddenly had the idea to write these little weekly journals.
After all, I'm always lurking around for others' blog weekly updates, so I thought outputting some of my own daily snippets would be pretty interesting too, right? 🥰
But these little weeklies will probably just be whimsical products of days when I'm in a good mood 😿. I’ll update them casually, maybe I’ll forget about them one day, and I'll only remember to write a post when I'm bored or don't want to get down to serious business.
Like this post, which comes on a Monday, born from a momentary desire to escape studying for the midterms... 😑
Estimated time of completion: unknown, maybe indefinitely far off (just kidding)
☀️ Coming out to bask in the sun!
The sun has been so good this week... even though it almost made me—a perpetually gloomy vampire—faint from the heat 😺
Then I found a spot in the shade, drank iced cola, and felt absolute bliss.
There are so many radiant, youthful college students in the Foreign Language Park...
I was like a dog on the side of the road, scared away by their beautiful, youthful aura, leaving behind only this super pretty snapshot. 🥹
Are they cosplaying some characters? It really looks so good!
And kittens! Kittens that interact with people! Kittens with super cute meow-punches! 😽
Usually on weekends, I would just collapse on my bed and stay paralyzed until one or two in the afternoon, not even eating brunch or lunch, just paralyzed—not playing games, not studying.
But that day, there was an "accidental" early awakening—
Because my roommate got locked outside and called me—the only one in the dorm—to open the door.
I got up and started moving like a normal person.
And then, the entire weekend became different.
🍜 Tried food I'd never eaten before! A small effort to overcome HFA's behavioral rigidity.
I've always been a rigid person. I don't actively explore new things, like food I've never eaten, or paths I've never taken... I always feel that my life has been in a solid state.
To give a typical example:
If I find a certain food at a restaurant delicious, I will keep ordering that one thing.
Even if I get sick of it, I'll still keep ordering it because of familiarity and a sense of security.
Or, for instance, if something I'm familiar with isn't in its familiar place,
I will only ever look near that spot, or go to another familiar place to look,
which makes my "searching ability" extremely poor.
(Since I was little, I've had countless times where I couldn't find the house keys because they weren't in the "familiar place," and ended up getting scolded when the adults found them 😭)
It's very hard for me to have the thought: "I haven't tried this before, I want to try it!"
This is more or less related to HFA (High-Functioning Autism).
But, I feel that a happier me is changing little by little.
Although the Buldak spicy noodles wrapped in roasted cold noodles (Kao Leng Mian) is something I've seen in videos many times,
actually choosing it and eating it—for me,
was a small challenge that others probably couldn't understand.
Actually, HFA has brought many different impacts to my life.
I always thought these areas where I was "different from others" were just me being "weird."
(Of course, it is "my difference.")
As I write down these feelings right now, I realized that my period of excitement today lasted for maybe more than twenty minutes (something like that),
and surprisingly, I started experiencing breathlessness and a racing heart.
I am not at all used to this feeling.
Along with it comes sensory overload—
like the stinging pain in my eyes from the bright sun, or the discomfort when the music volume is just slightly too loud.
That "can't catch a breath" sensation is not good at all.
Maybe in the future, I will write about these differences brought by HFA and record them.
📚 Time to be a "Neijuan" king (?)
The Middle Building (Zhonglou) is too beautiful. The sunlight spilling through the window panes gives off a gentle yet awakened campus vibe.
Have you ever seen the School of Information Science and Engineering at 10 PM on a Sunday?
We all talk about "slacking off" (moyu) to slightly ease our nervousness...
But sometimes, living earnestly and working hard can also bring a certain kind of peace of mind.